I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. Although, diseases of the soul are more dangerous and more numerous than those of the body, my trouble is when trying to preserve the health of my body, it becomes so difficult to do, without destroying the health of my mind. It may not show but my fat terrifies me, it's a ticking time bomb. I know that happiness lies, first of all, in health. I struggle to remain positive and consistent in my health needs and goals, because there something in my RA that breaks down the pride of my womanhood. I repeat, "Mind Over Matter" in my head, because I know that, at times, your mind has great influence over the body. Although, I want to become physically healthy, I must also strive for great consideration and service to others. This will contribute to my personal, emotional and spiritual needs. I also need to work on my inner ability to remain focused, determine as confidence and hope do more good than physic. If my body isn't right, the rest of my day will go wrong. If my mind isn't right, then the rest of my life will go wrong. In conclusion, I need to simply take care of myself. This week kicks off my battle of the bulge, wish me luck and good health.