I have a brief moment to breathe, before being thrown back in the rush of LIFE. I'm so grateful for how busy my life has got, because it keeps me going. It keeps me smiling, moving, positive and happy. Staying busy, keep me from beating myself up. It keeps me from the negativity of my own doubts and it keeps me from worrying or caring about what others think of me. I admit, I have a very dark side of me. A side of me I hate and sometimes can't control. I thank my family, my friends and most importantly my husband for keeping me safe from self destructing, at times.

My husband will be leaving in less than a month, to the other side of the country and I can't stop thinking about what I'm going to do without him. :o(  He's my better half, he's the better spouse, the better everything. Like any wife, I'm going to miss his touch, his voice, his scent, his priesthood, his presence. Most of all, I'm going to miss his loving and caring help with his cripple wife. Tears continue to flow and he hasn't even left yet. :o(

On a scale of 1 to 10 my Level of Pain today is an ELEVEN!

I'm feeling a little

but yet a WHOLE LOT OF PAIN in my joints

I'm sad I can't go KickBoxing like I wanted but at least there's always...

plus I love the ENERGY at Gold's...


April Conference  2012